Wednesday, January 11, 2017

Choices

So that is how it feels like... to hear the person you love weep over the man he had replaced you with. 

Like unsharpened knives cutting your heart open, its dull edges prolonging the process inflicting more pain and suffering.

Blood gushes each passing moment, every sob takes the blade deeper.

You stay and endure the ache
just so his heart and soul wouldn't break

His tears eventually lulls him to sleep
and you, you my friend, will be nothing more but a mere sponge who willingly absorbed his burden out of sheer stupidity.


Saturday, December 31, 2016

Happy New Year

he was drowning
in his own tears
of unending sorrow
his muffled screams 
unheard by the people
celebrating the new year
he was alone
empty
lifeless

Thursday, December 1, 2016

Four Seasons of Loneliness

i long for, the warmth of,

the days gone by

When you were mine
But now those days are memories in time
Life's empty, without you
By my side
My heart belongs to you
No matter what I try


When I get the courage up to love somebody new
It always falls apart 'cause they just can't compare to you
Your love wont release me

im bound under ball and chain
Reminiscing our love
As I watch 4 seasons to change


Here comes the winter breeze
That chills the air and hits the snow
And I imagine kissing you under the mistletoe (as springtime)
As springtime makes it's way here, lilac blooms remind me of
The scent of your perfume

Reminisce inside of love,
On summer nights, indeed
I always get the hots for you (ooh)
Go skinny dipping in the ocean where we used to do
When autumn sheds its leaves of trees are bare, when you're not here
It doesn't feel the same
It doesn't feel the same


Oh
Remember
The nights when (remember the night)
When we closed our eyes (when we closed our eyes)
And vowed that you and I would be in love for all time


Every time I think about these things I shared
(Think about these things I shared)
I'm not gonna cry, 'cause I get so emotional (I get so emotional)
Underneath it makes me think I'm under ball and chain
Reminiscing our love
As I watch 4 seasons change


Here comes the winter breeze that
That chills the air and hits the snow
And I imagine kissing you under the mistletoe
When springtime makes it's way here lilac blooms reminds me of
The scent of your perfume (Ooh)

On summer burns with heat
I always get the hots for you
Go skinny dipping in the ocean where we used to do
When autumn sheds its leaves the trees are bare when you're not here
It doesn't feel the same


This loneliness has crushed my heart (it's killing me baby)
Please let me love again (just one more thing)
Cause I'm devoted girl find me and ease my pain
or seasons will bring
The loneliness again


Here comes the winter breeze that
Chills the air and hits the snow
And I imagine kissing you under the mistletoe
When springtime makes it way here,
Lilac blooms reminds me of
The scent of your perfume (Summer nights)

On summer nights, indeed
I always get the hots for you
Go skinny dipping in the ocean where we used to do
(Go skinny dipping oh,oh)
When autumn sheds its leaves the trees are bare when you're not here
It doesn't feel the same

Remember,
The warmth of,
Days gone

Wednesday, November 16, 2016

random

"From time to time, Paige went out with doctors from the hospital, but she refused to get romantically involved with any of them. Alfred Turner had hurt her too deeply, and she was determined never to go through that again."

-S.Sheldon, Nothing Lasts Forever

Tuesday, November 8, 2016

isolation

He yearned for long drives
for lazy mornings and warm nights

he longed for slow dances 
underneath the black, moonlit canvas
to the rhythm of unspoken vows
of eternal love and fidelity

he craved for petty quarrels
that blossomed into fierce love making  
which left nothing but gentle kisses
and intertwined souls caressed by the cold autumn breeze

he dreamed of discovering new worlds
exploring cities
getting lost in a labyrinth strangers and skyscrapers
unafraid of wandering too far
for you, his home, is with him.

but just as dreams dissolve at the crack of dawn
so did his
he looked in the mirror and saw the void on his chest
the nothingness that engulfed the remaining fragments of his heart
"the pain is debilitating" he thought

he retreated into an emotional fortress where no one could touch him again.

Monday, November 7, 2016

11/4/16

May all your dreams come true

Sunday, September 11, 2016

insignificant sighs

Nine months have already passed

I can still feel the pain

one wrong picture

one wrong song

evoke forlorn memories

that lurk deep in the crevices 

of my flimsy heart

____

maybe they're right

i am but a soul that needs saving

a new love

a spark of hope

but hope

like love

is something I have abandoned

just as how i was abandoned


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