Thursday, December 1, 2016

Four Seasons of Loneliness

i long for, the warmth of,

the days gone by

When you were mine
But now those days are memories in time
Life's empty, without you
By my side
My heart belongs to you
No matter what I try


When I get the courage up to love somebody new
It always falls apart 'cause they just can't compare to you
Your love wont release me

im bound under ball and chain
Reminiscing our love
As I watch 4 seasons to change


Here comes the winter breeze
That chills the air and hits the snow
And I imagine kissing you under the mistletoe (as springtime)
As springtime makes it's way here, lilac blooms remind me of
The scent of your perfume

Reminisce inside of love,
On summer nights, indeed
I always get the hots for you (ooh)
Go skinny dipping in the ocean where we used to do
When autumn sheds its leaves of trees are bare, when you're not here
It doesn't feel the same
It doesn't feel the same


Oh
Remember
The nights when (remember the night)
When we closed our eyes (when we closed our eyes)
And vowed that you and I would be in love for all time


Every time I think about these things I shared
(Think about these things I shared)
I'm not gonna cry, 'cause I get so emotional (I get so emotional)
Underneath it makes me think I'm under ball and chain
Reminiscing our love
As I watch 4 seasons change


Here comes the winter breeze that
That chills the air and hits the snow
And I imagine kissing you under the mistletoe
When springtime makes it's way here lilac blooms reminds me of
The scent of your perfume (Ooh)

On summer burns with heat
I always get the hots for you
Go skinny dipping in the ocean where we used to do
When autumn sheds its leaves the trees are bare when you're not here
It doesn't feel the same


This loneliness has crushed my heart (it's killing me baby)
Please let me love again (just one more thing)
Cause I'm devoted girl find me and ease my pain
or seasons will bring
The loneliness again


Here comes the winter breeze that
Chills the air and hits the snow
And I imagine kissing you under the mistletoe
When springtime makes it way here,
Lilac blooms reminds me of
The scent of your perfume (Summer nights)

On summer nights, indeed
I always get the hots for you
Go skinny dipping in the ocean where we used to do
(Go skinny dipping oh,oh)
When autumn sheds its leaves the trees are bare when you're not here
It doesn't feel the same

Remember,
The warmth of,
Days gone

Wednesday, November 16, 2016

random

"From time to time, Paige went out with doctors from the hospital, but she refused to get romantically involved with any of them. Alfred Turner had hurt her too deeply, and she was determined never to go through that again."

-S.Sheldon, Nothing Lasts Forever

Tuesday, November 8, 2016

isolation

He yearned for long drives
for lazy mornings and warm nights

he longed for slow dances 
underneath the black, moonlit canvas
to the rhythm of unspoken vows
of eternal love and fidelity

he craved for petty quarrels
that blossomed into fierce love making  
which left nothing but gentle kisses
and intertwined souls caressed by the cold autumn breeze

he dreamed of discovering new worlds
exploring cities
getting lost in a labyrinth strangers and skyscrapers
unafraid of wandering too far
for you, his home, is with him.

but just as dreams dissolve at the crack of dawn
so did his
he looked in the mirror and saw the void on his chest
the nothingness that engulfed the remaining fragments of his heart
"the pain is debilitating" he thought

he retreated into an emotional fortress where no one could touch him again.

Monday, November 7, 2016

11/4/16

May all your dreams come true

Sunday, September 11, 2016

insignificant sighs

Nine months have already passed

I can still feel the pain

one wrong picture

one wrong song

evoke forlorn memories

that lurk deep in the crevices 

of my flimsy heart

____

maybe they're right

i am but a soul that needs saving

a new love

a spark of hope

but hope

like love

is something I have abandoned

just as how i was abandoned


***


Tuesday, August 23, 2016

random

Maybe one day i'll be done, i'll be at peace. But until then, I'll continue to write your name... only to curse it.

Tuesday, June 7, 2016

the vow

alone he sat in the corner

running his palm on his chest

on withered scars that cover his heart

he remembered them sweet words vividly

what he said about love

about its wonders

about gliding through wheat fields

about lazy mornings

and skinny dipping in the ocean

he reread the poems

the songs

the little things

...

he hated it

...

you never leave the person you love

how can you abandon love?

...

eyes shut, he gently whispered

to forever close his doors

to shut people away

because everyone will leave eventually

and words, no matter how shiny they are

will lose its lustre when trials come

so he swore

with the remaining fragments of his heart on his clutches

to NEVER engage in love again

for love

is nothing more

than an illusion

a snare

and a trap of wonderful promises

***





I know you're happy and I hope you always get what you deserve. I hope you fulfill your dreams and I wish I am there to chase them with you. I'm afraid you are the last person I will ever love.

I'm not okay yet but I will be eventually, because in the end, you having found happiness is what matters...
Though I'm not going to lie, deep in the subconscious part of my head is a spark of hope wishing that one day we will be together or maybe you having found the stregnth to give us another chance.

Good night.